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25 June 2009 @ 01:36 pm
ok so um i cant start dieting becuz well... im breastfeeding. if i do diet my son wiill starve. i wont produce milk. so bummer.....
17 June 2009 @ 10:28 am

This amazing little man right here
 is why I havent been keep'n up with my diet.

but im start'n again.

I am currently 148lbs, the biggest Ive ever been.
im gonna get down to 110lb soon i hope. im gonna try hard.

29 August 2008 @ 06:44 am
I am so hungry right now.... my stomach wont stop growling and rumbling... i am glad that its empty but ugghh i hate the sick ffeeeelllling
eww ok so yesterday i ate 2 hotdogs with the buns and mustard and relish and 2 peices of pizza and 2 pieces of choco dunkers from pizza hut and a bread stick and 2 glasses of orange juice...... i know what a mother f*ckin fat *ss right!!
13 August 2008 @ 03:57 pm

this is killing me .. 
so our scale is broken at our house
 i cant weigh my self and its driving me absolutely nuts!!

11 August 2008 @ 01:10 pm

so it has been a while since i last posted.

The last time i weighed my self i was 136lbs 
but my diet has been suffering greatly i kinda have been eating anything and everything for a week straight!!!!
 i need some inspiration from ne one please!
fat.jpg image in HommieHoppers


01 August 2008 @ 10:30 pm

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Totally did good with the first official day of my diet. 
i feel good!
I feel smaller, i havent been able to weigh myself.
hopefully ill be sayin goodbye to 145.!!!

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Bones RBeautiful

Today i had to deal with the BF. He noticed that i hadnt eaten all day, and i just told him ill eat when im hungry. He said ok if ur not hungry.... then my stomach growled really loud and he got a pisssed off look, i said really i dont want ne thing i am fine..then he yells at me sometimes i feel like i am like a effing criminal for wanting to look good, like its a damn crime to be thin. But im gonna do it, im gonna get there, ill meet my goal i swear it, AND NE WAYS IF IM NOT HUNGRY>>IM NOT HUNGRY. next time my stomach growls im going for a run!

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110 by september 2nd 
Which should be close to perfection for my height of 5'8''.

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30 July 2008 @ 01:53 pm

so i think im gonna actually start the 2468 diet

29 July 2008 @ 02:55 am

i want to be 110lbs
..not 140